she turns away again and he retreats she calls and he can't talk she asks and he doesn't hear he gestures but she doesn't see he offers but she is distracted he speaks but the wind carries his words away they love by different means each gives but neither receive both stay because both believe... Continue Reading →
centered
Balance is challenging but essential. This is not just an abstract, new agey concept, but a very practical one. Without balance we topple, or at least we wobble. From fighters to yogis, we must find our centers. This, for me anyway, is often easier said than done. Work vs. Family; Faith vs. Reason; Conservative vs.... Continue Reading →
Don’t look at me, I’m hideous.
Today is my oldest son's birthday. He is 17. He seems to be ok. Not sure how many times I've wondered if he or I would make it even this far but today I have realistic hope that he will be a functioning, responsible adult. Someday. Still have miles to go, but I think he's... Continue Reading →
semantics
So much arguing and so little clarity about so many things. So many people bicker over ideas without defining the terms they are using as they sling their words. But the definitions make all the difference. Some recognize this and use the unrecognized dissonance to their advantage and some assume both sides of the argument... Continue Reading →
shadows
Shuffling about and mumbling but often arriving early, his presence is consuming dark, brooding and burly. Even for those prepared he shows up unexpected, smearing salt into the wounds of relationships neglected. Suspicious shadows precede him and linger long after; allow a smile nearby and he'll make guilt out of laughter. In the cloudiest or... Continue Reading →
51 – a strong female lead
In January of 2013, I taught a short series of classes on Changing Attitudes. Looking back at my journal, I'm pretty sure I didn't learn the lessons I was trying to teach, considering that judging by some of my recent entries here, I'm still more critical and more of a complainer than I should be.... Continue Reading →
traffic
Dark, dank, moldy cell Back of truck, personal hell human cargo is not the past still alive, spreading fast she wakes up, sees the day wishes she hadn't just wanted to play edge of yard seemed safe enough he was friendly when he drove up offered her money to go for a ride in a... Continue Reading →
48 – Tap water in Margaritaville
I'm no Jimmy Buffet. I already know there's no woman to blame for my troubles, if I'm honest about it, though sometimes I blame her anyway. I've tried a rum drink in the Caribbean and couldn't tolerate it. I'm not a fan of sand in places where it grinds off skin, and I won't wear... Continue Reading →
getting up
Upped my lexapro. How it works I don't know. World was dim hard to go out, like my head was full of phlegm. stumbling around in the dark for a key to a door that's already open.* Upped my lexapro and I wake up hearing the morning trill of the birds flitting about in the... Continue Reading →